Below is a list of all the chapters to date:
Chapter 1 : Fight Night – The journey begins with a White Collar boxing match which ended up saving my life.
Chapter 2 : The Build Up – The training I went through and the signs which started to show that something was up.
Chapter 3 : The Appointment – The first critical day of many that changed my life and put me on a course that lead to Valve replacement surgery.
Chapter 4 : The MOT – As the Doctor so aptly put it, I was sent off for an ‘MOT’ to have an ECG (Electrocardiogram) and other tests to see what was going on.
Chapter 5 : The Heartbeat – The day I heard my own Heartbeat, or rather lack of, is one I’ll never forget.
Chapter 6 : The Surgeon – The meeting with the surgeon was a defining moment, as he put it “you know how you hear of young people just dropping dead? Well this is why!”
Chapter 7 : Putting It All Together – Understanding what the diagnosis meant and starting to see the choice I had to make.
Chapter 8 : Questions – I did as much research as I could and then went back to have a meeting with the surgeon to ‘thrash it out’ and be clear on everything.
Chapter 9 : My Parents – The hardest and most emotional day of my life. Telling my parents what was going on.
Chapter 10 : The Email – How do you begin to tell everyone whats happening? This is the conclusion and very real email I sent.
Chapter 11 : The Collapse – The scariest moment of my life and how I nearly died.
Chapter 12 : Country Walks – When a simple yawn became much more than just being tired.
Chapter 13 : Ghosts – Seeing people but not connecting with them, how not being real can have a damaging effect and distanced me more from my surroundings.
Chapter 14 : The Answer – The choice I made on an unfathomable question.
Chapter 16 : Twenty Four Hours Before the Operation – Final tensions rise, saying goodbye to family and friends, and being told “it’s a good thing you’re here, you wouldn’t have made it to Christmas.”
Chapter 17 : 11/12/13 – Waking up the morning of the operation to be prepared and finally accepting this is it.
Chapter 18 : Memories – From mental torment to hallucinating in hospital, it’s all in here!
Chapter 19 : Music – A simple smile can go along way.
Chapter 20 : The Process Of Recovery – Arriving home and dealing with the impact of open heart surgery.
Chapter 21 : Stitches – How a simple change in tone can have the most wonderful effect.
Chapter 22 : Revisiting The wards – Sharing the appreciation of being alive and the wonderful care received during hospital.
Chapter 23 : Make or Break – The examination and results that meant so much.
Chapter 24 : Fawlty Towers – How a comedy TV show made more sense than this meeting.
Chapter 25 : Cracking Chest – Unnerving sounds and a reminder of what reality now meant.
Chapter 26 : Rehabilitation – Simple walking and movement can have the greatest impact on well being.
Chapter 27 : Understanding It All – Finally facing what had happened and coming through depression.
Chapter 28 : The Power Of Music – Music, for me, is key and aided to the final recovery. Letting loose at a concert was all it took.
Chapter 29 : Two Lives Of Perspective – Life would never be the same again, and I felt it.
Chapter 30 : Feeling Good – The choices made are now a living reality.
Chapter 31 : Moments Of Realisation -If I ever needed a sign, these would go a long way.
Chapter 32 : The First Run – Fast forwarding to 2016 and i’m running!